In conjunction with conquering my commitment phobia, I’ve also decided to conduct an experiment on saying everything I feel and think. And by everything I mean everything, even the stuff where you’re like oh I probably shouldn’t say that after five days of knowing him…or ever.
It’s sort of like How to Lose a Guy In 10 Days, except as crazy as it sounds (and I am definitely unleashing the not-so-normal), the results are positive and I don’t waste time worrying or hoping or wondering “what if?”. Which makes me think that somehow I’ve only cheated myself by playing games, by not taking the risk of saying what I want to say more often.
There’s definitely a middle ground, which I know exists, but for now while I’m in a foreign country and don’t know anyone, I want to experience the other extreme and figure out what the right balance is for me…how much to hold back, how much to say. Any advice? G-d I miss my therapist.